"They say that the suffering you endure when you are younger is a way for you to pay your dues early and make room for better things in the future. Keep at it until you are calloused and bruised. Although you may be hurt and bleeding now, a better day will come. Hard work will never betray you."
Kang Gary of Leessang, Dec 2011

Monday, July 18, 2011

Crazy.

I had one of the craziest week.

I was on MC last Monday. Migrain melampau. My biji mata literally rasa nak tercabut and kulit muka rasa macam nak koyak. Telinga pulak jgn cakap lah dia punya berdengung, rasa macam nak cabut je telinga simpan dalam freezer.

Then on Tuesday night tayar kereta kena paku pulak. Bapak gajah punya paku. Actually it looked more like a bolt. Yes BOLT siap pakej dgn washer bagai hokey. Bangsat mana la yang letak menda tu kat jalan. Dahla kena tengah malam buta. Alhamdulillah I was already almost reaching home so tak sempat lah sebarang kejadian yang tak diingini berlaku.


Logik tak paku species ini boleh wujud kat jalan raya? TIDAK SAMA SEKALI.


I barely had a proper sleep the whole week. Mainly caused by those shits yang kadang2 buat aku rasa macam nak gila. Plus I was also emotionally disturbed by the family drama of this one fren of mine. Witnessing the whole drama made me so damn thankful for my family and my life, even if I was really just anak angkat tehehe..  It was that tragic and disturbing, I fell like hugging him and just cry everytime I saw him. Ehh tak lah mana ada niat amik kesempatan ghahaha *nervous laugh*. Pastu tiap kali teringat pasal kisah dia je terus rasa nak call my mak cakap I love you banyak2. Tapi mak pulak dah la tak jawab call, pastu bila jawab garang pulak tanya aku sibuk call2 ni nak apa T__T. Mak sapelah tu tak penyayang langsung.

I spent almost everynight with him last week, trying to help him out. I reached home from work around 8pm, cleaned up after my cats, tukar baju, then went meet him sampai 3-4am. Mandi pun xsempat. Pastu esok pagi pergi kerja dengan muka pucat mata lebam muka banyak jerawat, bajet natural beautylah sangat. Hoihh sumpah penat seminggu hidup macam tu. Tak pasal2 aku ikutan stress. But at some point aku rasa berbaloi jugak lah sebab at least dapat ringankan beban dia walau sekadar just being there. Cecehh confident je aku nih tah2 dia makin semak kepala tengok muka aku tiap2 malam pastu kena dengar aku membebel2 macam gila pulak. 

But the ultimate craziness was on Tuesday afternoon.

I came in early after lunch, pastu bersidai kat meja akak admin untuk sesi bergosip sakan sambil makan jambu. Then tiba2 there was a light tap on my back. So I turned around and it was my GM with his two guests he had over for a meeting. He introduced me to them and then took them back to the conference room. Being introduced to a handsome Japanese hunk with your mouth full from chewing chunks of jambu is so uncool. Gila kau dahla muka comot2 baru balik lunch. Memang rasa cam nak terjun bangunan. Not cool Mr.GM, not cool *nanges*.


He had the exact same eyes. And hair. 


Now I nak pergi sambung tangisan penyesalan ini..


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