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As usual, like any other "conversation" I had with some of my frens lately, ianya berpunca dari me being soooooooooo busy.
I tak cakap u salah. Dan I tak cakap yang I totally betul. But comes to think about it, memang sangat tak fair la when u said it yourself yang I told u so little, yet u dah boleh jump to conclusions. That's just as equal as making assumption sayang oii.. Pastu marah I pulak bila I ckp u were making assumption. Sooooo unfair.
Please dear, next time please let me finish. Ni belum apa2 u dah jumped in. I didn't even have the chance to finish my sentence. So how can I start? U buat mcm tu, it's like u said u wanna listen to me talking but u did all the talking instead while u should do the listening. That's why most of the time, I memang saja xcerita anything to u.
I admit it and I'm more than aware that it was my fault to start with. I stopped calling and texting. I did that to everybody, including to 2 of my bestfren. Bukan u sorg je yang maki I, semua org pun did the same thing. But at least lepas sessi makian tu, they gave me space to talk. And guess what, they LISTENED.
I did what I did and I turned out to be the busiest-person-on-planet-Earth not solely because of my work. My work is just one of the main reason as I spend half of my day at work. Tapi u only notice that half, and ignoring the other half. For your information, the other half tu I have to spent it on myself la kan, which myself tu referring to my family & I. So whenever I don't have to spent time for my family, I will spent it on me. And whenever I don't have to spent the limited time to me, baru I spent it on others (which happens once in a blue moon).
Sorry I have to make it so public like this. I'm just trying to be honest and I'm trying to get your attention. I understand if u don't like this but this is the only option I have. Yelah memandangkan I kan sibuk yang teramat, takut la xde masa nak jumpa u and explain. I taknak la pulak benda ni tergantung any longer, as u said it's been long enough.
And to all my frens (especially both my dear Seri n Amz), I am truly sorry. Especially to those yang asyik tertipu dengan janji2 manisku ittew. I sedar okkay, I selalu berjanji tapi susah nak tepati. Truth is, I was just trying, making the effort to hangout and spent time together tapi malangnya bila tiba masanya tu, I'm not available la pulak. That's why i decided it should be easier to stop calling and texting, so I will not be obligate to anybody. Dan aku pun xdela jadi munafik, dah janji2 pastu tak tepati. Memang haram jadah la sangat kann..
So Mr. Dear, I am truly sorry from the bottom of my broken heart.. *nanges*